Stunned
After church today, I went to go get my paintings from the woman who is going use them for the women’s retreat materials. She walked me into her living room and opened a small box from Kinko’s Copies. Inside were a hundred or more 3×5 size manilla-colored cards with a beautiful picture of a cherry blossom on them. I was standing a short distance from them and said “Oooo” they looked like some beautiful kind of wedding stationary. Then it hit me…
It was a small painting I had done. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. I held one in my hand just trying to grasp what was happening. All of a sudden inside of my body I felt this surge of unlimited possibilities. Like an amazing door of opportunity had just opened up to me. My work, my art, could be sent to anyone, anywhere. It had potential to be turned into anything printable. I could put my art on anything! Of course, I always knew this was possible, I am not an idiot. But it just seemed improbable. I just always thought that to get to that point I better be really (and I mean “Wow. You make it look so easy and flawless” kind of really) good at what I do. But even with it’s flaws, and there are quite a few, the picture really looked nice. I am not trying to brag at all. I feel like the part of me that is able to do this creative stuff is a gift and I don’t take it for granted.
I really want to share this painting with all of you! Now I don’t want to do myself the disservice of putting a lame photo of it (like the the heart-ripped envelope) on the blog. So, I am going to let any of you out there see it in person for yourself. I am offering to send a postcard out to anyone who wants one. If your interested in seeing my very first printed piece of art that will inevitably catapult me into new unlimited possibilities please send me your address through the “contact” button on the left.
Oh, and you can all look forward to a new version of my site in the near future… Blessings to you, and thanks for stopping by!
Mindy, I have been planning to commission some party invitations from you for some time… Those note cards made from your cherry blossom drawing are breathtaking!
You have an amazing talent. It’s not so much that you can duplicate an image with photographic precision, it’s a talent for capturing the emotional essence of your subject when you draw it.
I’m glad you are starting to see your gift!
Mindy, what incredible person you are! I will pray for you to continue to find release and time for your creativity. I don’t see any reason for their to be guilt. Consider the Proverbs 31 woman. It doesn’t sound like she spent every moment taking care of others needs. Having raised 1 child and currently working on another I have had to learn that it was important to have blocks of time to myself (2,4,6 hours) just to be and to have time to create. I too am driven to create and lose touch with myself when I don’t take time to let my spirit roam free. I felt like I wasn’t the best of myself to my family if I didn’t take time out for me. Have you ever considered hiring a Mother’s Helper for a couple of hours on any given afternoon. They are relativly inexpensive (2-3 dollars an hour) and come over to play with your kids while you go do something else. It has done wonders for me! Let me know if you are interested and I can describe this in more detail. Blessings and peace on you sister!
Steph