The Wee Hours
Its 1:30am and I have not been able to fall asleep completely since 10:30 when I went to bed. I was tired and ready to sleep… but my body wouldn’t let me.
I know that stress and anxiety are a part of life. But something is askew. Every time I was falling asleep tonight I would wake up taking a deep breath and feeling tingly in my limbs (a sign of not enough oxygen, I think. Or just adrenaline that wont shut up). So I am stuck being awake at the wee hours with no idea how to go to sleep. I drank herbal tea with valerian (a natural flower extract used to relax). I took a melatonin (a natural sleep aide). Still nothing. Not sure what to do. I have three kids who are going to want to get going in the morning and I will probably be in a state of sleepy cortisol rush. I dread waking up.
Since last October I have been told various things about my health: recovering from mono that I didn’t know I had; anxiety disorder; allergy issues; asthma… All of those things can go along with a weakened immune system and adrenal issues. And recently one of my kids was diagnosed with pneumonia, maybe I have that now. Whatever it is I do not like it.
What happened to the old me that was able to live a fairly normal life? Ugh.
You’ll get back to that place and you’ll be wiser and more mature cause of it – just hold on!