Awake
I am awake when I don’t want to be. I have a terrible cold and needed antibiotics. Took the first one before going to bed. Not sure if I am having a reaction but I laid in bed for almost three hours before realizing that I hadn’t actually fallen asleep. My body kept waking up. I had tingling in my hands, feet, lips even. It seemed like my heart rate was low and I was waking up because things were shutting down. I have no idea if that is what was happening but I am up now. Listening to the rain fall steadily harder outside. And soon the power may go out. I am SO not wanting to be awake when the power goes out. I hate it in fact. To top it off I have a pinching feeling in my neck and left shoulder that has been getting worse over the pass three days. I am very much unhappy with the state of affairs my body is in. Thirty-five is not so much fun right now. I feel like my body is nearing eighty instead.
Spring Break
So, I need to update this blog soon, huh? Not sure what to say about life these days. It’s a bit unpredictable but I do know that it is in the hands of the God I trust. And whatever comes next is, well, whatever it will be.
Today we were supposed to be going to the beach condo we bought into with some friends a few years ago. Our hope was to rent it out often and make a profit. Well, it hasn’t rented much in recent months, but it rented for this week. The week we were supposed to go down and get some things done. Which stinks because we all really wanted to go. But in the long run it is good because that is what was supposed to happen. Oh well…
Maybe a few day trips can be fit into the week instead.
Up and Running
My hubby and I have been working on this site most of the day. The housework just had to wait, but it is so worth it. I am really excited about how the site is coming together. I seem to have some momentum after that depressing post last night. But that is fine. I needed to get all the yucky feelings out to bring up the good ones… Plus, the sun shined today! Now that always brings up motivation!! Unless, it is sweltering summer sun… That usually makes me unhappy too. I am a fickle creature.
First Goal: Make this site interesting
Soon there will be original artwork at the head of this site. Ii am working on the drawing and hopefully we will get it up soon. The Gallery category currently has posts with art work attached. I will continue to add things to it as I scan them in. Eventually, I would like to generate some kind of business though the site. So, anyway, thanks for stopping by and come back soon!
Hmm
Not sure what to write… I will eventually have the energy to write something… but that isn’t right now. Thanks for stopping by though… that was nice of you… sorry if i let you down… got any suggestions on what to write about… my life seems pretty boring to me.
Oh, and i didn’t write the last post… so if they sound worded differently than “me” thats because they weren’t me… yeah, I know, that last sentence barely makes sense to me too…. time to retire for some sleep
Historical Election
Wow. This is what it feels like to be a part of a true historical moment. Chills run through my skin as I watch the next First Family walk across the stage. A black family. An American Family. I did not vote for Obama. I voted for McCain out of pure conscience for the lives of the unborn… For the definition of marriage… I wanted to vote for what I truly believed to be important. I did not really feel connected to John McCain in any way, except for some of his conservative views. But for many reasons I did not want to vote for him. I did not want to vote for the “Loose Cannon.” I did not want to vote for a man who apparently called his wife a “c–t”. I did not want to have to listen to his voice in speechs. I did not want to hear him use the phrase “my friends” one hundred times a minute. But I must say I am humbled by his speech. It was gracious and kind. And totally embarrassed by the Arizonians who were there to boo and hiss like a bunch of ignorant idiots!
I wanted to vote for Obama. I wanted to support the election of an African-American. In the end I did not help it happen, but I am glad we are where we are… I am glad for what has happened because of what it means.
The Weekend in LA
The weekend flew by like a bird in flight. Soaring in greatness upon a blue canvas… then gone. Directed, purposeful, graceful … but now gone. People I love dearly who take me for what I am and let me be just that, shared a few days of my life and I with theirs.
THE VIEW
Wrenched
Sometimes life throws a wrench right in to your side. A blunt trauma that knocks the breath out of you and leaves you grasping for something to lean against just to keep you steady as you take it all in. Something so unexpected that it causes you to gasp and hold a hand over mouth. One of those moments when you know that if you were acting it would look so perfect… so real… so pure. A moment that you think “Is this really happening to me? I am really IN this moment?”
That happened to me today. My husband had sent the kids outside to play and then said I should take a look at a letter from my kids’ preschool. It arrived in the same 5×7 manilla envelope all of the school materials arrive in. There in among the papers was a letter to all the parents.