New Look
As you can see I switched over to using WordPress for updating my site. Over the next few weeks I will be making various updates to the design and functionality. Thanks.
Historical Election
Wow. This is what it feels like to be a part of a true historical moment. Chills run through my skin as I watch the next First Family walk across the stage. A black family. An American Family. I did not vote for Obama. I voted for McCain out of pure conscience for the lives of the unborn… For the definition of marriage… I wanted to vote for what I truly believed to be important. I did not really feel connected to John McCain in any way, except for some of his conservative views. But for many reasons I did not want to vote for him. I did not want to vote for the “Loose Cannon.” I did not want to vote for a man who apparently called his wife a “c–t”. I did not want to have to listen to his voice in speechs. I did not want to hear him use the phrase “my friends” one hundred times a minute. But I must say I am humbled by his speech. It was gracious and kind. And totally embarrassed by the Arizonians who were there to boo and hiss like a bunch of ignorant idiots!
I wanted to vote for Obama. I wanted to support the election of an African-American. In the end I did not help it happen, but I am glad we are where we are… I am glad for what has happened because of what it means.
Better
The days have been better since the last entry. And tonight I panted my mudroom with some very interesting paint. Keep you all posted!
Maybe
Maybe it was the hot weather drawing us to stay indoors… Maybe it was lack of interesting food choices in the cupboard… Maybe it was the lack of social interaction… Maybe it was the heartache of never being the person I should or could be… Maybe it was the lack of interest in doing anything worthwhile… Maybe it was stillness of our house… Maybe it was the little mites that are living on all of our windowsills… Maybe it was because I seem to fail more than I succeed… Maybe it was the stop sign I neglected to obey… Maybe it was the ticket that came next…
Swept Away (Pic included)
Life keeps flowing like a constant stream… Usually effortlessly moving me along in its currents. Other times the minutes drag on… Moments slip away and new ones form. Sometimes I seize them, sometimes I reluctantly go through them. Whatever I choose there is always tomorrow to live better or to just live through.
The Mini-Van
Where to begin? Mini-vans in general are ridiculous vehicles that somehow have become the all-american family hauler. We drudge our kids in and out of them for most of their lives and the damage inflicted upon that poor car is immense. How bad can it get, you might ask. Well, it can be down right scary!! I finally got around to picking up all the crud off the floor and vacuuming that sucker out at the local gas station just the other day…
Keep Breathing
Deep breathing is an exercise most people have to learn. I, for one, am a shallow breather and all of the ridiculous sighs I have let out over the years were a sign I never saw. Moments of frustration, or deep overwhelming thoughts, would cause my mind to trick my body into drawing in a deep breath and release it in a loud wind… unconsciously, of course. A sigher, I was. Just as my father before me. His sighs were a sign that things were not going good. My siblings and I were aware that “the sigh” was a sign that things were starting to get out of control. Whatever the event, the control was not in it anymore.
The Wee Hours
Its 1:30am and I have not been able to fall asleep completely since 10:30 when I went to bed. I was tired and ready to sleep… but my body wouldn’t let me.
Mind Bloggeling
So, I have issues. Yep, who doesn’t? Anxiety is a horrible body-gripping, mind-blowing, intense creature that lurks right outside of any peaceful moment. And it has found me to attack.